I know it's been a while since I last updated, I am sorry for that.. Trying to adjust to life with 2 kids takes time and can be frustrating at times.. Our new baby girl Ailynne is almost 1month old!! I know time flies :) Ekko will be 4yrs old soon!! It's crazy how I can remember being pregnant with Ekko and it still seeems like only yesterday that I had her.. Ekko is doing great, she tries to help out with Ailynne all the time.. Ekko will carry down Ailynne's bottles from that night and her seahorse downstairs while I get Ailynne and her boppy :)

Ailynne is doing great too :) She goes to bed with us around 10p which is also when she gets her bedtime bottle, then anywhere from 2a-5a is when she wakes up for another bottle and butt change.. Then we get up for the morning anywhere from 7a-9a.. She eats at least 3oz-4oz, is wearing a size 2 diaper, and weighs 9lbs. 8oz. !!! She still has a head full of hair and more coming in.. her tearduct in her right eye is slowly opening up and working like it should.. She tries so hard to hold her head up on her own and can for a little while :) She's growing so fast it's crazy!! She was born wearing size 1 diapers, she never got to wear newborn diapers :(

Ekko is growing up fast too!! She's too smart for her own good, it gets her in trouble quite often lol. She helps me as much as she can and drives me insane even more. I want to get her into a dance classs and a gymnastics class.. The more I can get her invovled with the better things will be.. Ekko and I are just together way too much ad it's making things a little difficult around our house.. We're hoping to get her in preschool next year, cause it's too late for her this year :( She is slowly getting better with her alphabet :) She loves watching Super Why! which helps her a lot with her alphabet :)

John and I are doing great :) We're just waiting for my 6 week checkup so we can get even more things back to normal :P I can't wait to be able to start working out again!! I may not be able to be hardcore or push myself too hard but I will do what I can :) I plan to lose at least 40lbs :) This momma wants to be hot again lol Right now I have acold that has been going around cause of the drastic weather temp changes but it's all good, it's a mild cold... I am back at my prepregnancy weight and hope to have lost at least 10lbs by my 6week checkup :) I am starting to get my wives together for walks at least 3 days a week and going to be starting my Jillian Micheals on the Wii soon too :)

Other than adjusting to a life of taking care of 2 kiddoes, which is not as easy at it looks.. but it's definetly worth it :) Not much going on here.. trying to make it to where during the week when I go on walks to have both girls out with me, Ailynne in her carseat and stroller while Ekko is in her wagon :) and on the weekends John take Ekko to the park and play with her one day and I do the other so we can have our own time to focus on playing with Ekko and giving her quality time with us :)

I hope to keep improving things in my life :) and changes are definetly coming.. There are some issues with some people in my life that I have to work out with them but at the same time I am not going to break my neck to make people feel like they're so important when they do nothing to help me feel good about myself.. so it's ok I don't hold grudges, just know if we don't work out it's for a reason.. Making relationships work is a 2 way street and I am still waiting for people to catch up with me.. I don't expect much out of people, just that if you're my friend treat me like and act like it, don't rub things in my face and try to make me feel like crap when I know for a fact I am not the only one here who needs to work on things and take responsibility for their actions.. I don't have time for it nor do I need it.. I have a 4yr old to argue with all day I don't have time for childish games from adults..

I do however want to say I know I am not perfect but damn it I deserve better treatment from some people!! I am a good person and I try so hard, but I am done if you can't make a true effort.. And to those of you who are my true friends, thank you so much for being there for me whenever I needed you!! I am always here if you need me, so please don't hesitate to lean on me, that's what I am here for :)

Goodbye for now :)